InnerMotion - ガイドブック - このガイドブックを書いた理由
すべては1993年のある夜に始まりました。落ち着かない13歳の私は、初めてのレイブへの期待で胸を躍らせていました。何が起こるか分からず部屋の中で立っていると、姉がやって来て微笑み、シンプルなアドバイスをくれました。「目を閉じて、音楽を聴いて、踊ればいいのよ」と。私は姉のアドバイスに従いました。そして、それはまさに私が求めていたものでした。それまで、そのような音楽で踊ることはほとんどありませんでしたが、その夜、エレクトロニックビートが部屋を満たす中、私は目を閉じて踊り始めました。それは素晴らしい感覚で、すぐに大好きになりました！まるで私の中の何かが、まさにその瞬間を待っていたかのようでした。当時は気づきませんでしたが、その夜が、その後の人生を形作ることになる、音楽と動きとの繋がりを生んだのです。
その瞬間から、テクノクラブは私の聖域であり、学校となりました。毎晩踊るたびに、活気に満ちたコミュニティ、刺激的な人々と変革をもたらすアイデアに満ちた、選ばれた家族のような存在と出会うことができました。90年代のベオグラードのレイブシーンの力強いエネルギーは、私の成長と探求にとって完璧な背景となりました。ダンスは単なる趣味ではなく、ストレスをコントロールし、感情を整理し、自分自身と再び繋がるための、不可欠な行為へと進化しました。32年経った今でも、クラブ通いは私の人生に欠かせない一部であり、喜び、解放、そして自己発見のための大切な儀式となっています。
長年、私は体系や指導なしに、純粋に本能に従って踊ってきました。それが2016年に変わりました。心理療法士でありメンターでもあるハナ・スタマトヴィッチのおかげで、私の旅は力強く新たな方向へと進み始めたのです。彼女は、動きと心理的探求を独自に融合させたワークショップ「Open Floor」に私を招待してくれました。最初のセッションから、私はすっかり夢中になりました。ダンスは単なる身体的なものではなく、深い癒し、変容、そして啓示をもたらすものであることを理解し始めました。ハナの身体性、グラウンディング、マインドフルネス、そして感情表現に関する教えは、私の心に深く響き、私は学んだすべてのことを忘れずにいようと、あらゆる洞察とエクササイズを注意深く記録するようになりました。
One unforgettable workshop became a turning point in how I related to dance. For the final session of our seven-week cycle, we were invited to come in costume as a way to embody and express a new version of ourselves that had emerged through the dance process. I chose to turn my hands into living reminders of everything Hana had taught me, covering them with symbols that formed a kind of “cheat sheet” based on the notes I had collected over the years.
At our next therapy session, Hana asked me, “How would you feel about becoming a teacher of a practice like this? You’re a natural. Both your parents are teachers, and your detailed notes, combined with your scientific mind, would make you excellent at it.” I laughed and said, “Nooo, that’s not for me - I can’t see myself teaching a group of people.” Yet, within three years, everything had dramatically changed.
When Hana passed away on November 4th, 2022, our dance community was left heartbroken. She had a rare ability to guide people toward a deeper connection with themselves through dance. There was something extraordinary about the way she held space, it was calm, intuitive, and full of presence and love. She didn’t just teach movement; she helped people feel safe enough to be fully themselves. Through her work, many of us experienced breakthroughs we didn’t even know we needed. She was truly one of a kind. After her death, I felt a quiet but strong pull to keep exploring the knowledge about dance she had shared with me.
As I searched for deeper understanding, I was surprised to discover a significant gap in knowledge and there were very few comprehensive resources on conscious, intuitive dance. I spent hours digging through websites, articles, and videos, hoping to find something that reflected what Hana had taught us. I couldn’t find anything that captured the essence of her work. Then, at the Parallel Festival in September 2023, surrounded by beautiful music, nature, and a sense of belonging, something clicked. I would write the guide I had always needed and share this knowledge with others who might be searching too.
Fueled by years of personal notes, extensive scientific research, and relentless curiosity, I began pouring myself into this project. What started as a simple idea rapidly evolved into an ambitious mission - a comprehensive manual filled with techniques, exercises, and insights on mindfulness, embodiment, emotional connection, and transcending inhibition. Each session on the dance floor became a laboratory for testing and refining these ideas, deepening my understanding and bringing newfound joy to my own dance practice.
As my vision expanded, I realized I needed to develop new skills, especially in creating safe spaces, guiding groups, building trust, and understanding how movement can evoke deep emotional responses and altered states of consciousness. Then, in September 2024, once again at the Parallel Festival, I experienced another powerful insight: this knowledge wasn’t something to keep to myself, it needed to be shared widely. That realization inspired the creation of DanceResource.org - a non-profit, open-source platform for dancers, facilitators, researchers, and curious newcomers to explore movement as a path to self-awareness, healing, connection, and transformation. Determined to grow further, I enrolled in the Center for Integrative Development (CIR) in September 2024. A few months later, in December, I began mentorship with Alexey Kuzmin, an experienced teacher with over a decade of leading conscious dance workshops. Finally, in March 2025 - after twenty years in the IT world - I took the leap. I left my job to dedicate myself fully to the path of dance.
This guide is more than a manual; it is a testament to the transformative power of dance, a tribute to Hana’s legacy, and an invitation to anyone who has ever felt the pulse of music stirring within. My deepest wish is that through this practice, others will discover the boundless freedom and authenticity waiting to emerge from within their bodies - just as I did on that unforgettable night, all those years ago.
