InnerMotion - The Guidebook - Why I Wrote This Guidebook
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Alles begann in einer Nacht im Jahr 1993. Ich war ein unruhiges dreizehnjähriges Mädchen, voller Vorfreude auf meinen allerersten Rave. Während ich in meinem Zimmer stand und nicht wusste, was mich erwarten würde, kam meine ältere Schwester herein, lächelte und gab mir einen einfachen Rat: „Mach einfach die Augen zu, hör der Musik zu und tanz.“ Ich folgte ihrem Rat, und es war genau das, was ich brauchte. Ich hatte selten zu dieser Art von Musik getanzt, aber in dieser Nacht, als die elektronischen Beats den Raum erfüllten, schloss ich die Augen und begann mich zu bewegen. Es fühlte sich fantastisch an, und ich liebte es auf Anhieb! Es war, als hätte etwas in mir genau auf diesen Moment gewartet. Ich ahnte es damals noch nicht, aber diese Nacht entfachte eine Verbindung zur Musik und zur Bewegung, die den Rest meines Lebens prägen sollte.
Von diesem Moment an wurden Techno-Clubs zu meinem Zufluchtsort und meiner Schule. Jede durchtanzte Nacht brachte mich in Kontakt mit einer pulsierenden Gemeinschaft – einer Wahlfamilie voller inspirierender Menschen und wegweisender Ideen. Die kraftvolle Energie der Belgrader Rave-Szene der 90er-Jahre bot den perfekten Rahmen für meine persönliche Entwicklung und Entdeckungsreise. Tanzen wurde mehr als nur ein Hobby; es entwickelte sich zu einer wichtigen Praxis, die mir half, Stress abzubauen, Emotionen zu verarbeiten und wieder zu mir selbst zu finden. Auch heute, 32 Jahre später, ist das Clubbing ein wesentlicher Bestandteil meines Lebens, ein liebgewonnenes Ritual der Freude, der Entspannung und der Selbstfindung.
Viele Jahre lang tanzte ich rein instinktiv, ohne Struktur oder Anleitung. Das änderte sich 2016, als meine Reise dank meiner Psychotherapeutin und Mentorin Hana Stamatović eine kraftvolle neue Richtung einschlug. Sie lud mich zu einem ihrer Open Floor Workshops ein, der eine einzigartige Verbindung von Bewegung und psychologischer Erkundung bot. Schon nach der ersten Stunde war ich begeistert. Ich begann zu verstehen, dass Tanz nicht nur körperlich ist, sondern zutiefst heilend, transformierend und aufschlussreich sein kann. Hanas Lehren über Verkörperung, Erdung, Achtsamkeit und emotionalen Ausdruck berührten mich tief, und ich dokumentierte jede Erkenntnis und Übung sorgfältig, um alles Gelernte festzuhalten.
One unforgettable workshop became a turning point in how I related to dance. For the final session of our seven-week cycle, we were invited to come in costume as a way to embody and express a new version of ourselves that had emerged through the dance process. I chose to turn my hands into living reminders of everything Hana had taught me, covering them with symbols that formed a kind of “cheat sheet” based on the notes I had collected over the years.
At our next therapy session, Hana asked me, “How would you feel about becoming a teacher of a practice like this? You’re a natural. Both your parents are teachers, and your detailed notes, combined with your scientific mind, would make you excellent at it.” I laughed and said, “Nooo, that’s not for me - I can’t see myself teaching a group of people.” Yet, within three years, everything had dramatically changed.
When Hana passed away on November 4th, 2022, our dance community was left heartbroken. She had a rare ability to guide people toward a deeper connection with themselves through dance. There was something extraordinary about the way she held space, it was calm, intuitive, and full of presence and love. She didn’t just teach movement; she helped people feel safe enough to be fully themselves. Through her work, many of us experienced breakthroughs we didn’t even know we needed. She was truly one of a kind. After her death, I felt a quiet but strong pull to keep exploring the knowledge about dance she had shared with me.
As I searched for deeper understanding, I was surprised to discover a significant gap in knowledge and there were very few comprehensive resources on conscious, intuitive dance. I spent hours digging through websites, articles, and videos, hoping to find something that reflected what Hana had taught us. I couldn’t find anything that captured the essence of her work. Then, at the Parallel Festival in September 2023, surrounded by beautiful music, nature, and a sense of belonging, something clicked. I would write the guide I had always needed and share this knowledge with others who might be searching too.
Fueled by years of personal notes, extensive scientific research, and relentless curiosity, I began pouring myself into this project. What started as a simple idea rapidly evolved into an ambitious mission - a comprehensive manual filled with techniques, exercises, and insights on mindfulness, embodiment, emotional connection, and transcending inhibition. Each session on the dance floor became a laboratory for testing and refining these ideas, deepening my understanding and bringing newfound joy to my own dance practice.
As my vision expanded, I realized I needed to develop new skills, especially in creating safe spaces, guiding groups, building trust, and understanding how movement can evoke deep emotional responses and altered states of consciousness. Then, in September 2024, once again at the Parallel Festival, I experienced another powerful insight: this knowledge wasn’t something to keep to myself, it needed to be shared widely. That realization inspired the creation of DanceResource.org - a non-profit, open-source platform for dancers, facilitators, researchers, and curious newcomers to explore movement as a path to self-awareness, healing, connection, and transformation. Determined to grow further, I enrolled in the Center for Integrative Development (CIR) in September 2024. A few months later, in December, I began mentorship with Alexey Kuzmin, an experienced teacher with over a decade of leading conscious dance workshops. Finally, in March 2025 - after twenty years in the IT world - I took the leap. I left my job to dedicate myself fully to the path of dance.
This guide is more than a manual; it is a testament to the transformative power of dance, a tribute to Hana’s legacy, and an invitation to anyone who has ever felt the pulse of music stirring within. My deepest wish is that through this practice, others will discover the boundless freedom and authenticity waiting to emerge from within their bodies - just as I did on that unforgettable night, all those years ago.
