InnerMotion - Incwadi Yesiqondiso - Kungani Ngibhale Le Ncwajana Yesiqondiso
Konke kwaqala ngobusuku obubodwa ngo-1993. Ngangineminyaka eyishumi nantathu engahlaliseki, ngigcwele ukulindela i-rave yami yokuqala. Njengoba ngangimi ekamelweni lami, ngingaqiniseki ukuthi ngizolindelani, udadewethu omdala wangena, wamomotheka, wanikeza iseluleko esilula: “Vala amehlo akho, ulalele umculo, bese udansa.” Ngalandela iseluleko sakhe, futhi kwakuyilokho kanye engangikudinga. Ngangingakaze ngidansele lolo hlobo lomculo ngaphambili, kodwa ngalobo busuku, njengoba izinsimbi zikagesi zigcwalisa igumbi, ngavala amehlo ami ngaqala ukunyakaza. Kwazizwa kumangalisa futhi ngakuthanda ngokushesha! Kwakungathi kukhona okungaphakathi kimi okwakulinde leso sikhathi. Angizange ngikuqaphele ngaleso sikhathi, kodwa lobo busuku bavusa ukuxhumana nomculo kanye nokunyakaza okwakuzobumba impilo yami yonke.
Kusukela ngaleso sikhathi kuqhubeke, amakilabhu e-techno aba yindawo yami yokukhosela kanye nesikole sami. Ubusuku ngabunye engichitha ngidansa bangethula emphakathini ophilayo - umndeni okhethiwe ogcwele abantu abaphefumulelayo kanye nemibono eguqulayo. Amandla amakhulu esigcawu se-rave saseBelgrade ngawo-1990 anikeza isizinda esifanele sokukhula kwami nokuhlola. Ukudansa kwaba okungaphezu nje kokuzilibazisa; kwaguquka kwaba umkhuba obalulekile, kwangisiza ukuphatha ukucindezeleka, ukucubungula imizwa, nokuxhumana kabusha nami. Ngisho nanamuhla, eminyakeni engamashumi amathathu nambili kamuva, ukudansa kumakilabhu kusalokhu kuyingxenye ebalulekile yempilo yami, isiko elithandwayo lenjabulo, ukukhululeka, kanye nokuzitholela.
Iminyaka eminingi, ngangidansa ngokwemvelo kuphela, ngaphandle kwesakhiwo noma isiqondiso. Lokho kwashintsha ngo-2016, lapho uhambo lwami luthatha indlela entsha enamandla ngenxa yodokotela wami wezifo zengqondo nomeluleki, uHana Stamatović. Wangimema kwenye yemihlangano yakhe yokusebenzela ye-_PH0__ eyayinikeza inhlanganisela eyingqayizivele yokunyakaza nokuhlola kwengqondo. Kusukela esimisweni sokuqala, ngangithanda kakhulu. Ngaqala ukuqonda ukuthi ukudansa kwakungeyona nje into engokomzimba, kungaba ukuphulukisa okujulile, ukuguqula, nokwembula. Izimfundiso zikaHana mayelana nokubonakaliswa, isisekelo, ukuqaphela, kanye nokubonakaliswa kwemizwelo kwangithinta kakhulu, futhi ngazithola ngibhala phansi ngokucophelela yonke imininingwane nokuzivocavoca, ngilangazelela ukubamba konke engangikufunda.
I-workshop eyodwa engasoze yalibaleka yaba yinguquko endleleni engangizihlanganisa ngayo nomdanso. Esigabeni sokugcina somjikelezo wethu wamasonto ayisikhombisa, samenywa ukuba size sigqoke izingubo njengendlela yokubonakalisa nokuveza inguqulo entsha yethu eyavela ngenqubo yokudansa. Ngakhetha ukuguqula izandla zami zibe yizikhumbuzo eziphilayo zakho konke uHana angifundise kona, ngizimboze ngezimpawu ezakha uhlobo "lwephepha lokukhohlisa" ngokusekelwe kumanothi engangiwaqoqe eminyakeni edlule.
Esigabeni sethu esilandelayo sokwelapha, uHana wangibuza, “Ubungazizwa kanjani ngokuba uthisha womkhuba onjengalona? Ungumuntu wemvelo. Bobabili abazali bakho bangothisha, futhi amanothi akho anemininingwane, ahlanganiswe nengqondo yakho yesayensi, angakwenza ube muhle kakhulu kukho.” Ngahleka ngathi, “Cha, lokho akusikho okwami - angikwazi ukuzibona ngifundisa iqembu labantu.” Kodwa-ke, kungakapheli iminyaka emithathu, konke kwase kushintshe kakhulu.
Ngesikhathi uHana eshona ngoNovemba 4, 2022, umphakathi wethu wokudansa wasala udabukile. Wayenekhono elingavamile lokuqondisa abantu ekuxhumaneni okujulile nabo ngomdanso. Kwakukhona okuthile okungavamile ngendlela ayephethe ngayo isikhala, kwakuzolile, kunembile, futhi kugcwele ubukhona nothando. Akazange afundise ukunyakaza kuphela; wasiza abantu bazizwe bephephile ngokwanele ukuba babe yibo ngokugcwele. Ngomsebenzi wakhe, abaningi bethu bahlangabezane nentuthuko esasingazi nokuthi siyayidinga. Wayengumuntu ohlukile ngempela. Ngemva kokushona kwakhe, ngazizwa ngidonseleka kodwa nginamandla okuqhubeka ngihlola ulwazi ngomdanso ayengihlanganyele wona.
Njengoba ngangifuna ukuqonda okujulile, ngamangala ukuthola igebe elikhulu olwazini futhi kwakunezinsiza ezimbalwa kakhulu eziphelele ngomdanso oqondayo noqondayo. Ngachitha amahora amaningi ngiphenya amawebhusayithi, izihloko, namavidiyo, nginethemba lokuthola okuthile okubonisa lokho uHana ayesifundise kona. Angikwazanga ukuthola lutho oluthinta umongo womsebenzi wakhe. Kwabe sekuthi, eMkhosini iParallel ngoSepthemba 2023, ngizungezwe umculo omuhle, imvelo, kanye nomuzwa wokuba ngumuntu wakini, kwavele kwathi cwaka okuthile. Ngangibhala umhlahlandlela engangiwudinga njalo futhi ngabelane ngalolu lwazi nabanye abangase bafune nabo.
Ngikhuthazwa iminyaka eminingi yamanothi ami, ucwaningo olunzulu lwesayensi, kanye nelukuluku elingapheli, ngaqala ukuzikhandla kulo msebenzi. Lokho okwaqala njengomqondo olula kwashintsha ngokushesha kwaba umsebenzi onesifiso esikhulu - incwadi ebanzi egcwele amasu, izivivinyo, kanye nokuqonda ngokuqaphela, ukubonakaliswa, ukuxhumana ngokomzwelo, kanye nokweqa ukuzithiba. Iseshini ngayinye endaweni yokudansa yaba yindawo yokuhlola nokulungisa le mibono, ukujulisa ukuqonda kwami nokuletha injabulo entsha emsebenzini wami wokudansa.
Njengoba umbono wami wawukhula, ngaqaphela ukuthi ngidinga ukuthuthukisa amakhono amasha, ikakhulukazi ekudaleni izindawo eziphephile, ukuqondisa amaqembu, ukwakha ukwethembana, nokuqonda ukuthi ukunyakaza kungavusa kanjani izimpendulo ezijulile zemizwa kanye nezimo ezishintshile zokuqwashisa. Kwabe sekuthi, ngoSepthemba 2024, futhi eParallel Festival, ngathola okunye ukuqonda okunamandla: lolu lwazi kwakungeyona into okufanele ngiyigcine kimi, kwakudingeka lwabelwane kabanzi. Lokho kuqaphela kwaphefumulela ukudalwa kweDanceResource.org - ipulatifomu engenzi nzuzo, evulekile yabadansi, abagqugquzeli, abacwaningi, kanye nabasanda kufika abanesifiso sokuhlola ukunyakaza njengendlela eya ekuzazini, ekwelapheni, ekuxhumaneni, nasekuguqukeni. Ngizimisele ukukhula ngokwengeziwe, ngabhalisa eCenter for Integrative Development (CIR) ngoSepthemba 2024. Ezinyangeni ezimbalwa kamuva, ngoDisemba, ngaqala ukuqeqesha no-Alexey Kuzmin, uthisha onolwazi oneminyaka engaphezu kweshumi ehola ama-workshops okudansa okuqaphelayo. Ekugcineni, ngoMashi 2025 - ngemva kweminyaka engamashumi amabili ezweni le-IT - ngathatha isinyathelo. Ngashiya umsebenzi wami ukuze ngizinikele ngokugcwele endleleni yokudansa.
Lo mhlahlandlela ungaphezu nje kwencwadi yemiyalelo; uwubufakazi bamandla okuguqula umdanso, ukuhlonipha ifa likaHana, kanye nesimemo kunoma ubani owake wezwa ukushaya komculo ngaphakathi. Isifiso sami esijulile ukuthi ngalo mkhuba, abanye bathole inkululeko engenamkhawulo kanye nobuqiniso obulindele ukuvela emizimbeni yabo - njengoba nje ngenza ngalobo busuku obungenakulibaleka, eminyakeni yonke edlule.
