InnerMotion - Cẩm nang - Lý do tôi viết cuốn cẩm nang này
Tất cả bắt đầu vào một đêm năm 1993. Tôi là một cô bé mười ba tuổi bồn chồn, háo hức chờ đợi buổi rave đầu tiên của mình. Khi đang đứng trong phòng, không chắc mình nên mong đợi điều gì, chị gái tôi bước vào, mỉm cười và đưa ra một lời khuyên đơn giản: “Cứ nhắm mắt lại, nghe nhạc và nhảy.” Tôi làm theo lời khuyên của chị ấy, và đó chính xác là những gì tôi cần. Trước đây tôi hiếm khi nhảy theo loại nhạc đó, nhưng đêm đó, khi những nhịp điệu điện tử tràn ngập căn phòng, tôi nhắm mắt lại và bắt đầu chuyển động. Cảm giác thật tuyệt vời và tôi yêu thích nó ngay lập tức! Cứ như thể có điều gì đó bên trong tôi đã chờ đợi khoảnh khắc đó. Lúc đó tôi không nhận ra, nhưng đêm đó đã khơi dậy một sự kết nối với âm nhạc và chuyển động, điều sẽ định hình phần còn lại của cuộc đời tôi.
Từ khoảnh khắc đó, các câu lạc bộ nhạc techno trở thành nơi trú ẩn và trường học của tôi. Mỗi đêm nhảy múa giúp tôi làm quen với một cộng đồng sôi động - một gia đình tự chọn đầy những con người truyền cảm hứng và những ý tưởng mang tính đột phá. Năng lượng mạnh mẽ của giới nhạc rave ở Belgrade những năm 90 đã tạo nên bối cảnh hoàn hảo cho sự trưởng thành và khám phá bản thân của tôi. Nhảy múa không chỉ còn là một sở thích; nó đã phát triển thành một hoạt động thiết yếu, giúp tôi quản lý căng thẳng, xử lý cảm xúc và kết nối lại với chính mình. Ngay cả ngày nay, 32 năm sau, việc đi club vẫn là một phần thiết yếu trong cuộc sống của tôi, một nghi thức đáng trân trọng mang lại niềm vui, sự giải tỏa và khám phá bản thân.
For many years, I danced purely on instinct, without structure or guidance. That changed in 2016, when my journey took a powerful new direction thanks to my psychotherapist and mentor, Hana Stamatović. She invited me to one of her Open Floor workshops that offereda unique blend of movement and psychological exploration. From the very first session, I was hooked. I began to understand that dance wasn’t just physical,it could be deeply healing, transformative, and revealing. Hana’s teachings on embodiment, grounding, mindfulness, and emotional expression struck a profound chord in me, and I found myself carefully documenting every insight and exercise, eager to hold onto everything I was learning.
One unforgettable workshop became a turning point in how I related to dance. For the final session of our seven-week cycle, we were invited to come in costume as a way to embody and express a new version of ourselves that had emerged through the dance process. I chose to turn my hands into living reminders of everything Hana had taught me, covering them with symbols that formed a kind of “cheat sheet” based on the notes I had collected over the years.
At our next therapy session, Hana asked me, “How would you feel about becoming a teacher of a practice like this? You’re a natural. Both your parents are teachers, and your detailed notes, combined with your scientific mind, would make you excellent at it.” I laughed and said, “Nooo, that’s not for me - I can’t see myself teaching a group of people.” Yet, within three years, everything had dramatically changed.
When Hana passed away on November 4th, 2022, our dance community was left heartbroken. She had a rare ability to guide people toward a deeper connection with themselves through dance. There was something extraordinary about the way she held space, it was calm, intuitive, and full of presence and love. She didn’t just teach movement; she helped people feel safe enough to be fully themselves. Through her work, many of us experienced breakthroughs we didn’t even know we needed. She was truly one of a kind. After her death, I felt a quiet but strong pull to keep exploring the knowledge about dance she had shared with me.
As I searched for deeper understanding, I was surprised to discover a significant gap in knowledge and there were very few comprehensive resources on conscious, intuitive dance. I spent hours digging through websites, articles, and videos, hoping to find something that reflected what Hana had taught us. I couldn’t find anything that captured the essence of her work. Then, at the Parallel Festival in September 2023, surrounded by beautiful music, nature, and a sense of belonging, something clicked. I would write the guide I had always needed and share this knowledge with others who might be searching too.
Fueled by years of personal notes, extensive scientific research, and relentless curiosity, I began pouring myself into this project. What started as a simple idea rapidly evolved into an ambitious mission - a comprehensive manual filled with techniques, exercises, and insights on mindfulness, embodiment, emotional connection, and transcending inhibition. Each session on the dance floor became a laboratory for testing and refining these ideas, deepening my understanding and bringing newfound joy to my own dance practice.
As my vision expanded, I realized I needed to develop new skills, especially in creating safe spaces, guiding groups, building trust, and understanding how movement can evoke deep emotional responses and altered states of consciousness. Then, in September 2024, once again at the Parallel Festival, I experienced another powerful insight: this knowledge wasn’t something to keep to myself, it needed to be shared widely. That realization inspired the creation of DanceResource.org - a non-profit, open-source platform for dancers, facilitators, researchers, and curious newcomers to explore movement as a path to self-awareness, healing, connection, and transformation. Determined to grow further, I enrolled in the Center for Integrative Development (CIR) in September 2024. A few months later, in December, I began mentorship with Alexey Kuzmin, an experienced teacher with over a decade of leading conscious dance workshops. Finally, in March 2025 - after twenty years in the IT world - I took the leap. I left my job to dedicate myself fully to the path of dance.
This guide is more than a manual; it is a testament to the transformative power of dance, a tribute to Hana’s legacy, and an invitation to anyone who has ever felt the pulse of music stirring within. My deepest wish is that through this practice, others will discover the boundless freedom and authenticity waiting to emerge from within their bodies - just as I did on that unforgettable night, all those years ago.
